I am sitting in the school libary.. a place where I can further my knowledge with books and more books.. but then I an on the computer writing in my blog... hahaha.. yeah.. I want to go home already but then I have to wait till Debby and josh gets out to be able to get a ride home... errr.. I am so tired.. and I so want to go home and eat something because I am so hungry!... totally yeah... My legs are sore.. but then I had fun yesterday at the beach! the weather is so nice already.. and I think that I tanned a little .. hehehe I'm not so pale anymore... well not really anymore.. I am so bored..

Well I spent my spring break at my sister's house... before I left my husband told his mother... and she started saying a whole bunch of thigns... like.."if you take nyab be careful she will run away from you"... or "don't let her stay with her sister who is with the white guy.. she will tell nyab to run off.." I got mad and I told her that my sisters weren't like what she said.. and her reply was " oh.. kuv lam hais xwb os".. but then whatever.. I hate it how she says a whole bunch of crap and then tell me that she wasn't implying it to anyone.. Now I know why her children don't listen to her..

Yep... it's comming up next week!... It's so cool because I get about 2 weeks off! only because I'm a senior tho.. hahaha but then yeah... on the weekend of easter I will get to see my babies!... becky, Melinda, Elizabeth, Kevin, and Darlene!... and I haven't seen them all in over a year ever since I came back for the summer of 04 or 05 something like that... plus I'll get to see my step sister Pa and Nou and their husbands too... man.. everyone of us is like married nw.. and we all grew up together.. only maysee and sue is not married.. and their the 2 oldest.. hahaha wekrd how it happened.. but then Oh well....

I've been taking pills and everything.. taking pills that make me sleepy so that I can have a good night sleep and be able to breathe through my nose.. lol.. it sucks being sick.. but then there's like 2 other family members sick too and it totally bums me out because I don't want to do anything at all I just want to sleep all day long... but then I have school to attend.. yep.. and just a few more days then it is our spring break for 1 whole week! yep.. at that time I get to pratice driving.. but then omg I am so scared to drive on the road.. I just panic and get so freaked out that I don't know what I'm doing..

yeah.. it feels weird on this friday morning... but then there are some good things going on... oh.. My little brother said to me.. "I don't mind if you gave me a call.. even though you don't miss me I miss you"... It's hard to talk to them because I know that I just left him and my mom in Tn with evil sister Maysee.. and they really need me... but then our goal is to bring them back here to cali to live a good life and my mom wouldn't have to worry about working or anything and she can just stay home and watch our kids like she always wants to because she deserves this.. my mom is the greates

why is it that always in your senior year you want to slack off so much that there's nothing you can do about it.. it's like I feel so lazy I don't even want to attend school anymore because it is just so boring now... 13 years and I've gotten this far and now I start to slack and fall behind.. its not just me.. almost all the seniors are like this too.. and it's horrible... my teacher told me that after spring break she doesn't expect to see us at all... man man man... I feel like I don't even want to contenue with this year anymore and I just want to stay home and sleep.. or something.. I don't know...

It was the freakiest thing I have ever seen in my life being that it was the first time I've ever gone to a non christain funeral... right when my husband and I walked up to the place I had this feeling that I wasn't supposed to be there or something and it just didn't feel like something that I am comfortable with... when we got in they were beating drums and all that other stuff.. and that was more frightning... and having to stay the night there I couldn't take it anymore... I was just so scared... so I left with my sister in laws and we went over to one of their apartments and we spent the night there... To me I think that something like that is the worst way to remember a person.. at a funeral you would like it to be atleast beautiful and calm so that you can mourn the person's death... I don't know why but I just freaked out a little... and the funeral was so sad too... He had died at the age of 19 due to obesidy... he had stoped breathing and was hospitaized for a week and he passed on friday morning... may he rest in peace and his widow and child have a good life.. and hope that the OG's don't take him from her because it isn't the hmong way anymore to take the baby from his mother when she is moving after her husband passes....

whoa? a new blog..... now I have to start all over again.... Oh I guess so...